Purpose

A few weeks ago in Psychology Club, the question "What is your purpose in life?" was proposed to everyone in the club. Now, being as cool as the club was, not many people raised their hands, nor gave an answer. Near the end, the school counselor/club adviser said that we are so young, and that if we don't know what our purpose in life is, that's cool.

From my own standpoint, I have a very...general idea of what my purpose is; to serve the Lord and do what he commands. I mean, that's pretty much the bread and butter of what we're supposed to do, and for many Christians I imagine that they share a similar life purpose. None of this bothers me; in fact, it's sort of satisfying to know that you know your life purpose.

But see, the problem is I'm not sure how the hell I'm going to fulfill said life purpose. I mean, while I do have a nice medley of talents, I'm not sure I can really bring anything to the table. Yea, sure people have called me a pretty gifted in some areas, (Like in my pants!.... Sorry.) but I'm really not so sure if those "talents" will go very far.

I do realize two things: Yes, God does work in mysterious ways and while I might not see the big picture now, eventually it'll come into place and I'll be like "OOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHH, you sly dog you God" and everything will make sense. Second, that I might be underestimating what I have and that I could be some magical savant at... well I dunno but I could have some hidden talent (Hidden Dragon Crouching Tiger, boom I just hit you with an idiom I learned in Chinese class because of our project) that will completely blow everyone away and I'll inspire some amazing things and what not... or I'll just be one of those neighborhood heroes and be the good guy that helps out by doing...stuff.

I guess... it would just be nice to know what I'm supposed to be doing. I mean, if I'm meant to be some awesome piano/guitar/triangle/whatever player then it'd be cool to start now so I can... be used better? Uh... well I think you get the point, that I want to know what I'm called to be so I can work on them now and be better so I can help more. Granted, knowing my own path might lead to some dangerous things (or so books, manga and myths tell me) that might not end so well.

Banking on that in a mini-tangential section, (I'm using big words, go me) I'm pretty confused on this whole school situation for me is. As I said in the above paragraph, it would be nice to know if I'm going to be used as a great Statistics dude or an amazing chemist or whatever, so I can focus on it now and be all awesome instead of... Ok so halfway through this section I noticed the flaw in my argument, if you could call it that. Basically, not knowing what I'm going to do and just wandering through this bizarre walk we call life and just stumbling upon my calling could (read as: probably will) turn out to be better than knowing and doing all this preparation before hand.

I guess I'll just have to sit and wait...patiently. It seems like this is some sort of test because I'm really fidgety and I always need to be doing something or be engaged in something. And man... tests are lame.


This post I used correct grammar (I think? I don't proofread remember?) and I even used apostrophes, ye.

On another side note, I am thinking of changing the name of my blog (Awesome, for future reference just incase I decide to read all my posts again or something along those lines) because it really doesnt fit most of my posts, besides the fact that all of them are indeed awesome. It also seems that I am flowing with ideas this week, I actually have another post I want to write but its late and...yea.

Even Scientologists know there's more to all of this